Up at night again being unproductive and thinking too much as usual. Been watching this show for the past 2 hours, "Engaged and Underage" on MTV. Basically, a bunch of 18 year olds getting married despite their parents ominous disapproval towards their future son/daughter in law, and their friends threatening to kill each other because they are stating the bold, "You guys are TOO YOUNG" to get married! It's probably one of the more intriguing and true shows on MTV nowadays, even though I never put much stock into their programming since everything else dubbed "reality" is just a bunch of people trying to become a model, actor, or whore. No normal person would put themselves through that!

Anyway, all the episodes were normally cliche with the guy stating he used to drugs and hang out with the bad seeds and how he "changed" because he wanted to be with the girl and win her approval. Or that the girl inspired him somehow and he knew he had to change his life. Whatever happened to doing things for yourself? I have a pretty strong stance on what being in a relationship entails, and why people would want to commit their ENTIRE lives to one individual. No wonder divorce rates are eye popping nowadays.

I have more respect for people getting married at 18, as opposed to people doing it later in their lives.  Mostly because they have relatively few experience and believe strongly in that one person enough to want to make that commitment. I believe it is more of an engrossed infatuation since you are that young. You haven't really grown into the person you've become, plus people change over time. Historically people got married at ridiculously young ages. Nowadays, people want to focus on themselves first. Finishing college, getting their career rolling, and saving money to start a family. They will just find a point in their lives when everything in their lives is settled and will usually rush into it because it is the "next" step in their lives.  And because women stop getting pregnant at a certain time in their lives, they will probably just find the most compatible suitor for them at that specific time in their lives. Wouldn't it make more sense, say if you got married at a younger age to have someone guide you through all those steps in your life and give you confidence and strength? So if people are too busy focusing on themselves, why can't they be the ones to change themselves for the better? Why do they need that reassurance from someone? Its true that your flaws are easy to neglect or to bury deep inside you and having someone can help bring them out.  But its also true that if you specifically change an aspect of your persona just to better suit your companion it isn't as truthful. I don't really have an earnest answer to be honest. I haven't been in a relationship in ages, but just from what I've experienced from friends or what not I am just bitter on the subject. Bitter. Depressed. Jealous. Envious. Call it what you want, its all relative.